Just the Same… But A Lot Different.

It was all worth it.

The moment I stepped in to Araneta, I knew it was going to be different. Because this time, I knew I did my part. For nine long months, I waited and prepared together with people who share the same goal as mine: to give Super Junior the best of what they deserve from the Philippine ELF.

And I was right. It was really, entirely different from all others.

Sorry, Sorry was the first song. Again, it was the fish who I have set my eyes upon first. He was lifted from the circular LCD screen and he looked so perfect to me even from afar. Then the members appeared, standing and kneeling like life-sized mannequins. They were all glowing in white and I could hardly differentiate them from angels.

Then comes song after songs. Truth is, I compiled the fan projects and the fan chants but I was mentally blocked when I saw Super Junior. Indeed, one glimpse of these perfections can be fatal. Good thing I gathered back my thoughts and came back to myself – a fan girl.

But you know what? This time, I couldn’t scream loud. I couldn’t jump with them. I couldn’t even take pictures and fan cams even though my camera was on. It’s not that I was dumbfounded. It’s not that I haven’t fully recovered yet from the starstruck…

It’s just that I gave myself a chance to really feel what Super Show 3 Manila is all about.

I spent almost half of the concert sitting on my seat, crying, listening to the ballad songs and waving my lightsticks and project materials. During lively songs, I stand up and jump and scream but ended up being speechless whenever a member passes by my section. I was in the front-most row of the corner area, by the way.

But on the event that I cannot control the ubiquitous fan girl in me, I reach out for the boys’ hand, scream, jump, sing along and go gaga. Lucky me, I got to touch the angel’s hand and I tell you, my knees shook for like a minute or two afterwards. The angel has the softest skin I’ve ever touched. I even felt shameful because mine was rough. Nevertheless, I got to touch him.

And it felt like heaven.

The joy was further emphasized when I learned that the fans really put their hearts to the projects started by my friends in SUJU MAD. When I first saw the whole Araneta covered with No Other hearts, I started tearing up. I suddenly felt my heart flutter. You see, making people cooperate is as difficult as making Heechul happy. But Philippine ELF were united, and so the boys were obviously overjoyed.

We did it, guys. I can’t be any prouder.

And the fan chants? I didn’t hear it because the whole Araneta was too busy singing the whole song with the boys. I do not want to take the credits but I am hoping and praying that somewhere behind the success is the compilation I did. Because if it really helped, I knew I succeeded and all the annoyance and headaches are nothing. Same thing goes to the UYUBITKKAL KIM HEECHUL, SARANGHAEYO KIM HEECHUL and the URINEUN ELPEU-O-E-YO chants. I really couldn’t be any happier hearing it that night.

Indeed, this Super Show 3 Manila taught me a lot of things. Through it, I realized that miracles need time to reveal themselves. Patience is a real virtue which each one of us must learn. Because at the end of the day, even amidst the frustrations and disappointments, something worth it is waiting.

As the house lights of Araneta Coliseum went on, I saw Jungsoo’s gesture towards the grandmother who watched the concert. That’s when I realize once more that I am in the best fandom and I have the made the right decision in sticking with Super Junior and my fellow ELF for the rest of my life.

I stepped out of the concert venue and felt the very same feeling I did after Super Show 2, only a lot better because I know I did something this time. Everything has gone back to normal but after the concert, I knew that nothing will ever be the same again.

Thank you, Super Junior. Thank you very much.

To Cho Kyuhyun…

I often call you evil but that night, you become my prince and the sweetest person in the whole wide world.

When I saw you and heard you voice, I felt sleepy. Your voice is great on records but it’s greater when heard live. God knows how much I admired you that night, and ever since I become and SJ fan.

Though I couldn’t remember what you did for the introduction, it’s still clear to me how your voice cracked because of Shindong-oppa. That was funny, but still you were so handsome. ^^

When you forgot a line and Siwon hugged you, I smiled. I really like your smile then. It was the sweetest ever. You were like a kid being comforted by an older brother after being embarrassed by what you accidentally did.

And the stare, Kyuhyun-oppa… The stare you gave the fish when you guys were singing Who am I. It was heartwarming. For the first time, I felt like yeah, you were never the maknae. Hae’s obviously a kid compared to you. The stare and the nods you give him was priceless. I wish everyone got to see that.

Then came the dance performances. OMG. You were really awesome. I was just watching it on videos, and then you performed it live. Indeed, oppa, you should belong to the dance group of SuJu now. It’s as if you were never injured prior to coming to Manila.

It’s just too bad that you didn’t face our section during your solo.

But what you did before you went off the stage was really the sweetest thing ever. You refuse to stand up. you remained in your bowed position for a minute or two. So I started screaming your name, and the rest of the crowd followed. Then you stood up and waved goodbye.

I teared then. I am just not ready to leave as you. But I hope you had a great time, Evil Prince. I love you~

To Lee Donghae…

Indeed, you are the Filipino favorite. Fish.

You are the first Super Junior member whom I have laid my eyes upon. You were at our side, you came from under the stage and you were standing like a statue – gorgeous and sexy.

Then I started screaming and you started dancing. The other members started appearing too. But I was focused on you. You were so like how I see you on pictures and videos – only better.

I can’t remember what you did for the introduction. But I am so sure that your chest was the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen that night. You are so flawless as any members. You’re one of the official definitions of the word “HOT”.

You know what? I have always wanted to give you something but the concert caught me off guard. I told myself before that I want to give you an MYMP CD since you’re listening to them before. I was really envious of those girls whose gifts you’ve accepted and who possessions you’ve kissed. OMG. I was seriously thinking of trying to push myself in to kiss you.

During Angela, I had fun watching you hiding behind Yesung when Siwon was trying to get close to you. And Hyukjae was just smiling at you. Maybe he’s thinking that nobody could really take you away from him, and that’s certainly a Eunhae moment.

Then the hug you shared with the anchovy in the very middle of the stage, it was one of the cutest hug ever. You guys are so sweet. I wish I get to hug you too. By the way, your solo performance was terribly awesome, sexy and special since I looked forward to your dance duet with Hyuk.

Then… the Who Am I performance. I was crying the whole time and God knows how happy I was to see you all singing in English. All my biases were there! And your facial expression while singing the “Whom shall I fear?” part was totally priceless.

I wish ABS-CBN gets to give you a chance to do a drama here. You are a good actor and I know you’ll be happy if it happens.

Because you’ll be making the Filipinos happy. Because you’ll make Super Junior proud.

To Lee Sungmin…

I have to admit this, Sungmin-oppa. Teukkie was there at the concert but you were the most perfect thing that night. Your happiness radiates and in an instant, Minnie… YOU BECAME MY NUMBER 2.

It started when you carried Wookie during the Angela performance, and your facial expression to show us that your muscles are cramping. You were so cute. Wookie was enjoying himself in your arms, and I wonder who wouldn’t? Aissh. I was so envious but boy was I so happy to see the two of you sharing that kind of sweetness.

The way you sat during the She Wants It performance, I just want to go up on stage and then run to you before Teukkie appeared and then kiss you on the spot. I was really into your presence that night. I just couldn’t take my eyes off you then. I wonder how could it be so easy for you to be that cute?

It’s the fourth day after the concert and I seriously cannot remember most of what you did during the concert. You weren’t on our side often, anyway. But you know what? There is one thing I’ll never forget, Minnie: It’s the way you laugh when you were collecting those condoms and thongs with Teukkie. And it’s how you got that box of briefs from the leader.

THAT WAS SERIOUSLY THE CUTEST THING I’VE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE.

The way you laugh, Minnie, was contagious. Your bright face and aura is continuously playing over and over again in my memory. And I’m loving it. It’s just so great to see you in person, laughing authentically, and not caring about netizens might say of you when you go back to Korea. You were just laughing at the leader like you’re both little kids. The best thing was when you knelt and almost died laughing. The way you sat that night too was priceless.

YOU ARE SO PRICELESS, Minnie. And I wish I get to tell you that in person.

And when you got up and showed Hyuk the rolled thong, I remembered EHB. LOL. Seriously, I remembered your fox-like reaction when you ‘betrayed’ Shindong during that food eating task. LOL.

Aisssh. I seriously need a Super Show 3. And I mean it, I’ll be starting and heading a fan project for you too. I swear.

Minnie, please just continue being the cutest person that you are. I love you. ♥