Solace

Not everything is fine,

even your eyes admit.

Though it sparkles and shine,

some things just don’t fit.

.

You smile to look your best

and it always makes us blind.

But sometimes, we do notice

the things you have in mind.

.

Though you say you’re okay,

we can say you are lying.

Since we know you so well,

we know you are hurting.

.

If only we could take it all away.

If only we could take it all away.

If only we could take it all away.

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credits as tagged. GIF from superandyy

Jungsoo, Let’s Just Let Things Be.

I know it’s hard

I know it’s tough

But you’re still holding on,

you’re not giving up

I know the pain

I have seen your tears

And I wish we’re enough

to erase all fears

You’ve been so strong

I’ve seen it all

But though you’re an angel

You, still, can fall

You’re vulnerable

That thing I do know

But I always believe

that all pain will go

In due time, my angel

things will be fine

then whole world will know

your dreams and mine

When that time comes,

you can really be happy

But at the moment,

let’s just let things be. :’(

Jungsoo. I wish we’re enough. I wish we’re enough to take away all pain you’re feeling. I wish we’re enough to convince you that we won’t get tired.

I wish we’re enough to make you believe you in yourself, again.

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Because You Believed in Me.

At the moment, I’m actually searching my mind for words so I may be able to tell you clearly how I’m feeling. So if I go random, forgive me. I just have to say this.

THANK YOU.

See the GIF on the side. You are the Kangin as I am the Heechul now. We don’t take it seriously but the truth remains that you are all my comfort.

I cannot really find the right words to express my deepest gratitude to stalker93 ofsapphirepearls.com for taking out my poem, I Will Carry You.  Thanks too topolarelle for translating it to Thai language so more people may understand the message I’m trying to convey with the poems. And of course, to everyone else who took the time to re-upload it and credit me, I can never thank you enough.

I’m very sorry for making some people cry because of it. I guess it’s just normal because I wrote it while crying. Those simple words, they convey much emotions. They convey what I really want to tell Super Junior.

And thank you… Thank you for at least trying to make it happen.

Now let me tell a story:

When I knew that it was translated to Thai and posted in several foreign forums, I felt so relieved. I was in the verge of breaking down, believing that nothing’s going right with my production. But when I saw the poem, boy am I relieved.

The truth that it was translated to Thai, the truth that it was reuploaded to different forums and servers, the truth that many people agree with it – it’s so great. I instantly felt that I’m being believed upon. That there are people who still recognize me. That I’m not yet a failure many think I am.

I realized that indeed, The Angels’ Haven is one essential part of me. Writing is in my blood, as Super Junior is my life. And you, my dear readers, are my reasons to exist.

You might never know this. I may never be able to make everyone understand. I may seem like promoting my site and all, but believe me, I am telling the truth.

Thank you very much. And I wish there would come a time that I’m gonna meet you all.