To Set It Straight…

First and foremost, I didn’t fucking compare. All I said was Heenim (and the rest of the boys) were treated like royalties in Manila. AND I AM SERIOUS WHEN I SAID THAT! I wish I really could tell you how it was for SS2 and SS3 but I can’t because I don’t have permission to do so.

Now, please be wary. I wouldn’t control myself. For this once, I will just say here whatever I want to say. Hurt those who will get hurt, I would not give a damn and be nice.

Heenim got hurt and it’s human instinct that sent us all looking for someone to blame. Personally, I needed someone to take full responsibility of what happened because I want justice. I sound obsessive and fucking exaggerated, I know, but considering that I did everything I can to please Kim Heechul when he came to Manila even though Leeteuk should have been my first priority, I know I needed justice.

Now, if you will insist that I am comparing Manila to other countries and I’m being particular with Chinese ELF, I ask you: WHY THE FUCK WOULD I DO THAT? Backtrack my tweets! Even in the midst of some international ELF hating on the Philippines because the boys loved us, I announced that it will still be nothing compared to Shanghai’s encore.

Actually, that was fucked up. And it will forever fuck up my thoughts about some areas of this fandom.

Others are right. Why are we getting divided? Whatever happened in Shanghai and in other countries are all isolated cases. Just so you know, I saw Kyuhyun got hit by a plushie in the Philippines too. But he wasn’t hurt. I doubt if he even felt it. It wasn’t intentional after all.

Just the same, I know the fan who threw it did not mean it. (Unless, the picture I saw proves it otherwise.) Again, I am still giving her the benefit of the doubt. Though an attention-seeking fan misled us all by posting an ‘apology’ on Baidu, I am sure that whoever really did that is sorry.

Now, to save my sanity, let me say a few things. I couldn’t promise that these would be the last, though. Gifts are given to please, not to fucking hurt. I know how eager we all are to make our boards be seen by the boys but please, let’s give it to them the right way. We don’t have to push too far and end up ruining the night of the boys. It was a HANCHUL board and I suppose we all want him to see whatever that has Geng on it. But again, there’s a right way for everything.

The desire to throw things cannot be denied for I, myself, have felt it too. During SS2, I wasn’t able to bring anything. I was so envious when I saw SJ members picking up gifts thrown by the fans. So on SS3, I wanted to make an impression. I brought plushies and stuffs. I threw them on stage but I made sure it wouldn’t hurt them.

Oh, I just remembered. I threw a heart plushie on Heechul. He kicked it, probably thinking he could catch it by doing so. But when he couldn’t, he let it go.

Fine, enough of the reminiscing.

I am not coming clean. I didn’t say Manila was the perfect stop because nothing could beat Seoul. I may appear like a know-it-all but please, take care of the boys.

A Sincere Apology

I know I’m not in the position to do this but with all humility, I apologize for the issues that were brought out last night after Heenim’s incident in SS3 Shanghai. Now, the issue is no longer about his injury. It is now about the division and ruckus spreading like wildfire between Philippine ELF and all other nationalities.

Truth is, I do not know who’s saying which. But since the name and reputation of the Philippine ELF is being forsaken, please allow me to react:

I, myself, is against the comparison. I blamed and got mad with the incident and to whoever threw it but I never compare. I just urged others to take care of the boys. That’s the best thing to be done.

But some fans are yet to be educated of how things go in the Sapphire Blue World. Some fans have to know when to just shut up and stay humble. Manila pulled off a good show, yes; but to some ‘new’ fans, they thought it was the best.

Seriously, I am really embarrassed with their claims. I know for a fact that Manila wasn’t perfect. It’s just that we gave the boys the satisfaction for a concert. And though others assume that it was, I know it couldn’t be compared with SS3′s in China, especially in Shanghai. Much more to Seoul.

Really, it saddens me that some Philippine ELF are doing this. However, these are isolated cases, just like how all incidents are. Please do not generalize and do not ruin the impression you have of Manila.

Again, my heartfelt apologies.

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AT SA MGA PHELF NA WALANG IBANG GINAWA KUNDI MAGKUMPARA:

Akala ko nung una, pagiging reklamador lang ang problema ng iba. Yun pala, umaariba din sa pagkukumpara. Asan ang utak? Naiwan sa Araneta?

Magalit kayo kung magagalit kayo sa`kin. Hindi ako nagmamarunong. Gusto ko lang sabihin yung mga bagay na gustong sabihin (pero hindi masabi) nung mga talagang nagpakahirap na bigyan ng magandang impresyon ang Pilipinas sa Super Junior.

Unang una, wala kayo sa posisyon para magkumpara. Sa nakikita ko, karamihan sa mga may masabi lang eh unang beses pa lang nakapunta sa concert nung Sabado. Ibig sabihin, hindi nyo alam kung anong nangyari sa SS2 Manila at malamang, dahil nga ganyan ang mga sinasabi niyo, hindi niyo alam kung sino ang binabangga nyo at kung anong uri ng samahan ang sinisira niyo.

Walang nakakasigurado na taga-Shanghai nga ang nakatama kay Heechul. Walang nakakaalam bukod sa talagang nakabato at sa mga katabi nya. Kaya wag tayong magmarunong lahat. Pwede niyong hanapin kung sino yon, magalit kayo sa kanya, o ano pa man… dahil ganun ang gusto ko gawin. PERO PARANG AWA NIYO NA, WAG NIYONG LAHATIN.

Hindi niyo siguro alam kung gano kabigat ang epekto ng salita. At hindi niyo siguro alam kung sino nga ang binabangga niyo. Sa mga hindi matahimik ang bibig dyan, ang CHINESE ELF ang isa sa mga talagang pumapantay sa mga Korean ELF pagdating sa mga sorpresa para sa mga members. Kung hindi niyo alam kung anu-anong mga nagawa nila, magtanong-tanong kayo sa mga senior ELF niyo.

Mayabang na kung mayabang ang dating ko, pero kung hindi titigil tong issue na to tungkol sa Philippine ELF, hindi na ko magtataka kung wala na talagang maging Super Show 4 Manila. At hindi na rin ako magtataka kung ang maging tweet ni Heechul ay hindi tungkol sa nangyari sa kanya kundi tungkol sa mga away-away na nangyayari ngayon.

Ito lang: Maganda ang naging impresyon ni Heechul sa Pilipinas. Please naman, wag niyong sirain yon.