Not Leeteuk, Not ELF.

NOT PARK JUNGSOO.

Not this angel.

What the hell is happening? What the hell are you all doing this for? Bombarding Teuk’s Baidu Bar with those hurtful and painful comments? OMG.

HOW CAN YOU EVEN WISH HIM TO DIE?

Seriously, more than the annoyance and anger I feel towards those Chinese haters, the fear of seeing Leeteuk get hurt on those comments is really overwhelming me. I don’t want him to see those comments, I don’t want him to hear those words.

This is like twice in a row now. The first was before the Dream Concert, against Sones. That was why he switched to Twitter, right?

Now. This.

I don’t even know what to think about. This is really hurting me a lot.

God. Please, tell them it’s enough.

But on the brighter side, we managed to do this, after 30-minutes of spreading the word:

As far as I know, it’s the fastest KPOP trending topic to rise to Number 1.

I have said before that we are now his defense. Nobody could contest to that anymore with this.

So please, not Leeteuk or any SJ members.  Not us, ELF.

Blue Means Loyalty.

When I think of all the possibilities, I fear the future. Who knows what could happen? After a few months, a few years… Nothing is certain. Nothing could ever be sure.

I guess that is why God gave us the ability to hope and to believe that things will happen the way we want it to be. He’s a wise God and He does not give anything for nothing.

I would like to share to you my current thoughts: If we are focused on the way we look at things and we believe that it’s gonna happen, it will. Thoughts are magnets to reality. What you believe is what you get. That’s how simple life is, only we don’t fully understand.

Because we look for a much more complicated way. Since we see life as a complex process, we tend to think that everything’s as complex as it. Geez. I’m not coming clean, I am often that way. But at least, join me in this change.

Everyone, we always say we 13elieve. As ELF, it has been a common motto among all of us. But I fear like not everyone understands what it means. We promise to 13elieve, but to some people, why are there doubts?

I fear the possibilities of losing Geng, Kibum and Kangin. I’m a paranoia-infested individual and it’s difficult for me to look at things brightly.

But I have chosen to 13elieve.

Because as I have implied, if my heart fully believes that I’m gonna see all thirteen of them again on one stage, I know it will happen. In an unknown time, in an unknown circumstance, in an unknown surprise.

And just like how the old saying goes, everything’s just in the state of mind. The world fills our brains with so many ideas, and it’s up to us on which to believe.

Good luck on whatever you would choose to hope for.

Hush, Hush…

I found my Patch. ^^

LOL. Sorry for editing the picture. ^^ I was just trying to find something to cheer me up, and just when I saw this picture, I suddenly got the urge to edit it.

Should my Photoshop is working, this could have been more grave. ^^

Nah, seriously, I was too indulged with a story Cybil shared. It’s entitled HUSH, HUSH. I just forgot the author.

Basically, the story is about a Fallen Angel who wants to be a human. His name is Patch, and just when he found a body to use in the person of Nora Grey, they fell in love with each other.

Okay~ I don’t want to spoil the story. ^^

What does it have to do with Teuk?

Well, the truth is the whole time I’m reading it, Teuk’s face constantly appears to my mind whenever Patch is being described. Really. Except that Patch is dark, and Teuk is awesomely milky.

Aissh~ Random thoughts.

But the gist is this: Teuk is a Fallen Angel to me. He’s my Patch. He can communicate to me without saying a word and he can even make me see things.

He controls my life, and I am loving it.

He is an angel. He will always be an angel. He fell down to Earth to do something. And that is to make me happy for the rest of my life. ^^

I love you Jungsoo~ And you’ll always be my Patch ^^

`Til We Meet Again… Kangin.

I don’t know how to start with this. I know Kangin went to the Fan Meeting.. And I expected to hear the dreadful words:

“I’M SORRY AND I’LL BE BACK HEALTHY AND WELL.. 13 OF US WILL BE ON STAGE IN 2 YEARS SO PLEASE WAIT WITHOUT HAVING AN AFFAIR”

Credit: sj-market
 Translated by Chrissy @ TwELFs.com

I should have been prepared for this. I know I am prepared for the pain this departing would cause. I know it’s gonna be hard.

But I didn’t know it’s gonna be this difficult when it’s real.

He said he’ll be back. He said he’ll be better. But it’s two years. It’s another promise made. Two LONG years.

Shocks. After all, I’m not yet prepared.

I’ve been waiting for Kangin’s comeback since this year started. And it’s hurting me to realize that when he came back, he’s saying goodbye.

What adds more to the pain are Heechul and my angel, Leeteuk.

Both are hurting, and I can’t tolerate it. :’(

It’s a good thing that Teuk managed to control his emotions, throughout the program. But Heenim couldn’t. He walked out…

And when he came back, he was just holding Kangin’s hand.

And this is what only real love can do.

Brotherhood. Friendship. It’s never gonna fade. It’s never gonna end. Among Kangin, Heechul and Leeteuk, and the rest of the Super Junior members, it’s gonna be forever.

Together with ELF.

God… Let not this hurt so much. I’m not too capable of handling goodbyes. :’(