Thursday, December 29, 2011

All Efforts Paid Off

I knew this was going to happen. After the news was published in Naver and in AKP, I knew the fact that Super Junior had topped the album charts in the Philippines for 9 consecutive album releases will be known to the members...


Now, imagine the joy.

I know that a lot of my friends are judging me right now. After several weeks of spazzing over other groups and disregarding Super Junior (but lol guys, it was never easy doing that when it's intentional), here I am feeling so friggin' proud that my ultimate bias and the leader of (still) the best group [for me] has actually tweeted about the news. 

There are two reasons why I am crying for joy right now.

I bet there is no way Jungsu will forget the Philippines anymore. I'm not bullying the leader or anything (nor am I mad at him) but you know, there are certain times when he tends to forget the Philippines. It's really not an issue to me although sometimes, I get kinda hurt because I feel like our efforts are not recognized. But now, with this, I don't think we would be left behind when it comes to his speeches and thoughts now.

The Philippine ELF did it.

Let me not dwell on the issue about who supported the local releases and who ridiculed the idea because it will not count in Hanteo. I have the comments reserved for my very personal opinions. But let me talk about the fact that this is a rare thing for us, Filipino fans.

As we all know, the Philippines is a third-world country. Even if we got to enjoy two Super Shows already, everybody knows that most fans from here are struggling. But look at what we have done. I am not really boasting (though I sound like one) but one thing that I really like about the Philippine ELF is that we know what dedication is all about. YES, WE KNOW FULLY WHAT DEDICATION IS.

 The 9 consecutive albums garnered Super Junior with a history that is definitely difficult to topple. I bet one local artist is currently mocking the group, the fans, and the turnout at the moment; but that loser will just be a loser, so no worries about what he’s probably saying about this. Hehe. :>


This is something to be really, really proud of. But I hope that some Philippine ELF would not find this as an excuse to brag and boast on other groups’ fans. This is a recognition which we have all taken part in. Extra thanks should be given to fanclubs and fanbases who have exerted effort in promoting the local releases, though. So whether we bought it or we just helped in promoting (because we don't have money to buy), I raise my hat to all of you. 

Let this be a part of a glorious memory. Let this be a part of a very special history. I hope that with this, we managed to really make Super Junior feel loved and truly loved in the Philippines. I know that the boys value their fans' efforts so much so I pray that we also value the special meaning that this title holds. 

Congratulations, Super Junior!
Congratulations, Philippine ELF!

And to our dear leader,
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
You do not have any idea how much it means to me whenever you mention the Philippines on your tweets. I haven't even thanked you yet for getting inspiration from the Cebu inmates for your impressive MAMA performance.
So here's a double thanks to you. 
And yeah, no matter how much I fangirl over other guys, it never change...
I love you.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Super Junior: NUMBER ONE.

I guess the world doesn't need any explanations for this anymore.

Super Junior is really dominating the Philippines.
9 consecutive number ones for physical albums.
If only this would count in Hanteo. :D

Nonetheless, it's still a fact that Super Junior and Philippine ELF are at the number one spot in the country.
No pun intended. No boasting there.
Just plain truth.

And I am fucking proud.

Monday, December 19, 2011

On Shindong's Moves.

The critic in me overpowered my being an SJ-fan when I saw this teaser ad of Multi-Sung. Knowing that Shindong has a knack for this kind of editing styles, I want to believe that he became a one-man production for this. Since I used to edit videos too, I really can claim that this is one of the most simple yet most effective ad I've ever seen.

The artists who appeared count, of course. But the concept was kinda unexpected, especially that I think Shindong's starting an online shop. But it sure was catchy that people would really look forward to it, I bet. I especially liked it that Shindong just made these people mention 'Multi Sung,' and there, one of the greatest techniques in advertising (at least for me!) has been used: REPETITION. 

Okay. I'm gonna speak about what I learned: So repetition is the most basic yet the most tricky (that's why I refer to it as one of the greatest). It's cute to see people repeating the term, but if the execution or the concept of the whole ad isn't really interesting, repetition will turn out annoying. Shindong did a great save by asking famous people to say that, and using good video styles.

And as my friends say, "LET SHIN DONG HEE EDIT THE MUSIC VIDEOS OF SUPER JUNIOR!" Enough with the craps of dizzying MV's that are worse than fancams. HAHAHAHA!

I was kinda startled with people's comments about this teaser. Prior to this, Shindong photoshopped a picture of himself with Siwon's abs and some people didn't like it. They were accusing our Donghee of being a limelight-thief or attention-grabbing - which are quite off to me.

OMONATHEYDIDN'T's title: I KNOW MAJORITY OF US HATED SHINDONG BUT HE'S PLANNING SOMETHING BIG AND I'M INTERESTED ABOUT IT kind of surprised me. Though I truthfully do not question the title since I know how this cool site really is with their titles, I can't help but wonder for myself that are there really people who are still hating on Shindong?

I hope I am not the only one thinking about it... But don't you guys realize that Shindong is just being wise? I mean... whether we accept it or not, Super Junior is not an eternal group and being a member who believes (though I beg to disagree) that he might be nothing in the entertainment industry after the group breaks up, he's already starting businesses that would provide him with finances in the future.

Being a CEO is something serious for Shindong, or so I believe.

That is why I don't get it why people would hate on Shindong. Really. I mean, he's just doing this because he wants an assurance for himself and for his family that when the curtain closes, he will still be fine - financially. 

Furthermore, he is actually a good example! People should learn to be like him. Nowadays, we are really getting immersed with the present that we fail to look forward to the future and prepare for what might happen next. But Shindong's showing us that it is important to be ready. No one knows what the future holds, after all. ^^

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Losing Hope on GDA?

I mean it. I no longer want to care about the GDA. Seriously. I know that there are a lot of stuff happening around and it makes me just want to focus on the fact that at the end of each day, it is not the number of trophies that would measure the greatness of my boys. It will always be the memories and inspiration they have successfully engraved in the hearts of fans like us.

But as I think about this issue, I realized that I think - even for the last time - I would really have to fight for what I believe is right. Since this was already posted in SJ Market, I think there's no doubting anymore. I guess it's understandable that something is just not right. Some people are up for mischief and they are decided to drag not just Super Junior, but the whole fandom, down.

I know it's too early to conclude; but considering what happened on 2010, I would never cease to assume. My heart and mind are both enraged. This is not what Super Junior deserved. Based on how I see it, we are being deprived of the things we know we should receive, and we are becoming the underdogs in the story.

Yes, I don't care about the trophies. But I care about how these boys - who are working almost 24 hours a day - would feel when the chance of being the best group for the last time will be taken away from them. I would never ever let anyone ruin the name and reputation of a group who reached the top mostly on their own.

I don't know what kind of actions Korean ELF will do about this. As an international fan, I could only provide support them; and make people understand that there really is something wrong. No, I'm not involving any other group. I just want everyone to see what might really be happening.

And I wish the issue isn't real. I really wish.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Looking Forward to Christmas!

I never looked forward to Christmas. Yes, I'm happy that it happens and I take part in all religious practices for it wholeheartedly; but I don't really get excited when Christmas is coming near. Ever since I graduated high school, the Holiday Seasons has just been ordinary to me. No more excuses.

This is the reason why I wasn't excited when the news about the SMTown Winter Album came out. I spazzed and felt good when Snow White was released (believing that it sounded like a Christmas song) but it ended there. So I never would have thought that I will be changed by the newest song of Super Junior, which is SANTA, YOU ARE THE ONE.


It was supposed to be an ordinary Christmas carol, but I can never deny its effect on me. It's not just because it was sung by my favorite group and it was in pure English; but the song lyrics totally reflects what Christmas really should be: simple and happy. 

How did I say that?

The lyrics of the song made me go back to my childhood. When I considered the melody, I was stunned more by the realization that, yes, I missed being someone who gets giddy when Christmas comes near. I know I'm totally not making sense but I know that you know what I'm talking about. The song brought out what I've been trying to deny all my life - that I am still a kid who will hope for Santa to come on Christmas Eve with my gift.

Now let's go to the fact that Super Junior sang this song.

It's the title track for the Winter Album. Meaning, it represents everything else. This is one of the rare things that I really should thank their company for. It's not always that they give this opportunity to Super Junior. I don't know if this is how it really is; but somehow, I want to think that they gave this opportunity to our boys because they are finally recognizing the fact that at this very moment, SJ is their biggest stars.

As for the video, it was really great. Upon hearing the song, I told my friends that I wish that the music video would show light and fun scenes; and wish granted. Seeing them become so cute and lovely and everything nice, I can't help but really be thankful that I've been sharing the past Christmases with Super Junior and it just keeps getting better and better, EAR AFTER EAR year after year. hehehe

And the fact that HENRY and ZHOUMI were there made it just more terrific. I mean it. Seeing them in a video with the main group just feels so wonderful. They chose the right timing. Christmas is the season of acceptance and I just wish that people will realize that. The two did well and I'm so proud of them.

And Jungsu, babe, I'm just so proud of  you hitting those high notes and all.

Geez. I never thought I'd look forward to Christmas. Thanks, Super Junior, for making me normal again. ^^

Friday, December 9, 2011

Continuously Fearing. I Can't Imagine.

It's 1:00 AM. I have work in 8 hours and I know that I have to sleep. But somehow, my thoughts wouldn't really let me rest. In spite of the few days that I've been trying to stay away from anything that would remind me of the inevitable possibility, I go back to it at the end of each day.

Yeah, the fear that the time of separation is coming near overwhelms me. I've been trying to shake it off by indulging on other groups and disorienting myself from anything that has to something with Jungsu but I think, there's really no way out; and I am left with the fact that I'm probably just counting months before he officially enlists.

People who are not into the fandom would call me crazy and completely delusional; but I am the type of person who was never fascinated with goodbye. I have experienced a lot of it to claim that I never want to experience it again. I can't bear it if people I love leaves...

Especially when that person changed me.

I have learned to live life, depending on this fandom for happiness. I have managed to survive a one-sided and impossible love for the past three years. I have become someone I've always wanted to be because of an admiration which 'ordinary' people think is crazy. I have devoted half of my life to him, not to love me back, but to somehow just compensate with all the beautiful things he have endowed me with.

It will never be easy to let go. I would never find it easy to do so. Even if it's just two years, even if I know he's coming back - it will be just too difficult to handle. Though I know I'll carry on, I just couldn't imagine it happening.

Excuse me for being so random and emotional. I just have to let it all out again.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Snow White

video not mine

Recently, I've been feeling so depressed again over some matters. I feared. I got anxious. I was disappointed with myself. I didn't know what else to do to make myself feel and believe that everything's gonna be okay. 

But life really knows how to take me out of the darkness I'm in. Funny how the technique called 'Super Junior' never fails on me. Coz it took only a 4-minute song to paint a really authentic smile on my face.

'Baby don't cry, it's all right now.'

I couldn't really understand the song. It's only the English lines in which I depend on for the whole meaning of the song. And the melody, of course. It's wonderful. It's awesome. It's beautiful. It's everything positive I could ever think of right now for a song.

I don't wanna sound so delusional but every time Kyuhyun sings the part 'Baby don't cry, it's alright now.', I feel like he's talking to me. For the past days, I've been crying myself to sleep and spending the whole day contemplating on my depression - and I think this song has just convinced me to choose happiness again and believe that I can pull through.

The music's on loop right now. I think this will be the case for the whole day. :')

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Start of Goodbye.

Remember when I wrote something about Heenim's enlistment? I think I can now claim that I was right when I said that. At least for me, it is what's happening and tonight, I am feeling the exact emotions which overwhelmed me that very moment when I posted that entry.

Because as Jungsu says goodbye to KTR Sukira, I have this god-feeling that the strings of farewells before he enlists for the army has actually began.

This is actually the reason why I got really, really affected by the news that Jungsu's saying goodbye to Sukira. Heechul has gone through this series of endings too, so I know that the road we're taking right now is leading to the most dreaded hiatus due to enlistment.

I have been telling myself that I'll be fine, I'll be okay and I'll get by when Jungsu leaves. But I think I said that and I made myself believe in that because I don't want to sound like he is dictating my life already. But come to think of it, even if it's not manipulating my life, he greatly affects me in a way that I become a better a person. And there's no way that I'll be able to be in a good state when my guiding light disappears.

Yes, I live a life other than this fandom but I guess I cannot run from the fact that I am clueless as to how my life would be once Jungsu enlists. He has been my constant inspiration. Even if I get addicted and obsessed with other groups and idols, he will always be my home.

And with the start of goodbyes, I don't think I can really handle it well..

I Said I Wouldn't Cry...

Today marks the end of the 5 years and 3 months of DJ-ing for Jungsu and Hyukjae. After tonight, Super Junior Sukira KTR will be taken over by Sungmin and Ryeowook.

First and foremost, I do not oppose the two new DJs. I know they will do well. They have shown their capabilities already in the past few weeks and I am immensely grateful towards the staff of Sukira because they retained the name Super Junior in the show. They didn't give it to other groups and for that, I felt like there are still people who believe in my boys.

But even if I'm happy that I'll be seeing Sungmin and Ryeowook's cuteness more often, I cannot deny the fact that it feels sad to know that Jungsu and Hyukjae have to put down their DJ mics for the mean time.

I said I wouldn't cry. I feel like I don't have any rights to feel so because I wasn't there when it started and I wasn't even regularly watching them during Bora... But with the fact that I love these two very much, I guess I have to take my words back...

So yes, few minutes before the last broadcast of DJ EunTeuk, I am tearing up.

The truth is I am affected. They have set another history with this. It's another accomplishment for the group. The two hold the title of being the longest running DJ idols in the history of KPOP. For five years and three months, they have been part of the family of KTR and I know that it's gonna be difficult for them to leave...

because they loved the show.

Honestly, the tears that are flowing out of my eyes were brought by the thoughts that I know it's gonna be painful for them to say goodbye. I do not plan to watch the Bora since I fear like I'm gonna end up like how I did when Heechul said his farewells to Youngstreet.

But then, Jungsu said again that it's not gonna be an END. It's gonna be an AND. And I know that someday, even if not in Sukira anymore, I'm gonna see them again in a radio station, doing this thing which I know they're best at, being themselves every night... I know someday, we'll be able to go back to what we're gonna leave tonight.

I wish I could just tell them that even if I wasn't an avid listener; even if I wasn't there when it started... Their roles as DJ of KTR for the past years have left its marks in the hearts of the people who valued their words, their stories, their opinions, their jokes, their funny antics, their sweet nothings, their being themselves.

Kudos, DJ EunTeuk.. Whatever lies ahead, you know we'll always be right behind you. Good luck.