Saturday, July 31, 2010

Redefining What A Leader is to Me

So everybody’s feasting over Hyukjae‘s rendition of Yesung’s It Has to Be You. I have to admit I’m one of them. Before I could even get over it, I had to play it over and over again. Hyukjae definitely has a very soothing voice. His singing has the ability to charm people, to calm all worries, to relieve all stress. I couldn’t say anything less.
But then as I was getting indulged on Hyukjae’s magic, Jungsoo sang his part. And I was reminded that it’s still the’s still the angel that owns me.
Exaggerated? Haha.
You should’ve gotten used to it by now, dear. :)
But then, more than the singing prowess of Jungsoo, I was just too happy to realize that each time I see Jungsoo, he never fails to give the word “Leader” a brand new definition.
I guess, being the leader of Super Junior is not just a coincidence for Jungsoo. It’s his fate. It’s God’s plan. It’s what his life is designed to be. He is predestined to be the ‘hyung’ of fourteen other members.
And it’s not an easy task.
Yet, I wonder how he manages to do it. You see, I have met and worked with so many leaders in my life. I have become a leader too. But I have never seen a leader so determined, so protective and so supportive of the people he leads, than Jungsoo. He has the ability to impose respect and authority on people without telling.
And again, it’s not an easy task.
Jungsoo got to redefine the term ‘leader’ once again. If he is your bias, you would understand how I feel. You would understand how proud he is of Hyukjae for being so good in singing. You would understand how much fulfilled he is seeing his dongsaeng improving. If he is your bias, you would understand that he has proven himself worthy of the position he has been holding in Super Junior.
And if he is your bias, you would be prouder. than ever.
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Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Minnie Changes.

Super Junior’s Shindong recently revealed, “Sungmin is really lonely. He also has a lot of worries.”

The two appeared on SBS ‘Bae KiWan, Choi Youngah, Cho HyungKi’s Good Morning‘ with their other members, which aired on the 27th. On Sungmin, Shindong confessed, “He was really worried about his cute image being seen negatively. He talked to me a lot in order to show a more manlier side of him.”
Sungmin confirmed Shindong’s comment by saying, “I have changed a lot recently. Fans also told me that I have become cold. I used to act cute a lot in the past, but now my cuteness embarrasses me.”
Source: newsen
Translation: ch0sshi and Alice(OhㅡDɑrℓing♥) @ SJ-WORLD.NET
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Minnie said it before, but I thought he was just joking. But apparently, he’s serious when he said that he wants to show his manly side, and get rid of being the aegyo king of Super Junior.
And because he cannot seem to do it, he’s getting upset and depressed. He’s going through a hard time.
Must we laugh it off?
Hell no.
Minnie is serious about this.
I understand how Minnie feels. He’s 26 and branded on his forehead is a title which he have been bringing on since debut. Yeah, we all love him for that but I think it feels kind of tiring when for how many years, it’s the same thing he’s been REALLYknown for.
You see, people change.
When Minnie ditched Twitter, you guys just don’t know how that broke my heart. My rabbit left just like that. But then, it was what he wanted. So I’m letting go, and stopped ranting about the incident.
He had changed. He had become someone else. Everybody noticed it, but not everyone is paying attention with the details.
Think about it. When he showed off his body in the 4jib photos, the first reaction that he got was disbelief. Yeah, you know that right? There were people who thought it was photoshopped, edited.
Admit it or not, there were so many fans who didn’t want to believe that it was indeed his body. Many didn’t want to accept the manly side of him.
Because we want him to always be the cute Sungminthe eternal Aegyo King.
But you see, even our Minnie wants to change.
I pray we understand how painful that could be to our Sungmin. There is a possibility that he felt rejected. Because he worked hard to show something that is so unexpected of him, but many didn’t appreciate.
We all know that feeling, right? We all know how it hurts.
I don’t know what I could do to help him fight the worries that have been bothering him now. I just don’t want him to be lonely, even if that means I won’t be seeing his aegyo for a while.
Geez. Why would it have to be this hard?
All I want is for Minnie to do what he wants; to be the person he thinks he should be. After all, he’s getting older, as I am getting older too. I know that there are some things which would just have to change…
Like this.
But if only I could tell him straight..
Minnie, there was never a time that I see your aegyo as something negative. In fact, it has always brought light to my darkest days. But I want you to know that whatever you do, I will appreciate. Retain that cuteness, or be someone more manly, it’s fine with me.
After all, it’s Lee Sungmin who I love. Not just the Aegyo King that you are.
However, I’m gonna miss this:

Sunday, July 25, 2010


2010.07.23 Fri 04:39
..Myself shown on tv* is not entirely it*..
..Sometimes I may feel upset and frustrated..This is the road I’ve chosen..
..That nobody has challenged at those places (,) I wanted to take the challenge*..
..Even though sometimes I find myself hateful..
..Sometimes I become disgusted at myself..
..That image may by crazy (, but because) it’s my image..
..5 years passed now when I see myself firmly standing..
..Know without knowing* I think I’ve become more stronger..
..(I) will show (you)..
..In the future once in awhile when they look at me (,) to those people who misunderstand..
..Today my heart is just empty..
*How Leeteuk wrote it in his entry*His image shown on T.V. is not exactly the kind of person he may be*Take on new challenges*When you know something but you forget about it after awhile
Credits: Leeteuk’s Cyworld
Translated by
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Through this entry, I have come to realize that there are more reasons to love the leader. I cannot help but admire him more for admitting that what we see is not always what we get on him. Not all idols have the capability to do that. Because though it is the reality, admitting it is still not easy.

I understand Jungsoo. If you read my previous articles, you’ll see that I’ve been feeling the same thing as well. And I am sure that most of you do too.

Frustration and depression are really the biggest enemies we face in life. It’s a battle we fight against ourselves. We have to win against our emotions. It’s never easy. But we all have one key to victory.


Everything comes swift when you know what  you’re doing things for. Life becomes easier when you know your goal for living. All the things which hurt you wouldn’t last. You will be able to just laugh it all off and radiate the authentic joy in your heart.

Random? Read between the lines and you’ll understand. :)

And another thing, this made me realize that it’s the “Leeteuk” that I have known, and we’re yet to discover who “Park Jungsoo” really is.

Yes, I think so too. But not generally.

Because by saying what he said, he had just introduced us to who he really is.
Sorry for being sooooo random on this. :)